Going through the drill.

My head hurts. Been hurting all of yesterday after my exam till now. Been feeling crappy all day. Been knocking out each time after I took panadol. Been feeling spaced out. It's already Wednesday as I speak.

Tonight, I feel like I cannot do this anymore. My head hurts and I feel so drained. I slept all day and I still feel horrid. I just wanna break down and cry and wish that everything goes away. Nothing seem to be able to get into my head.

It's just 3 more weeks.. So near yet so far.. I don't know how I am going to cope. I am just bursting out of my seams. I am terrified..

I feel totally drained out. So drained.. So tired.. How do I do this. Sigh. Under so much stress.. If only I can wish for all these to go away.

How can I be strong?

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe...

Take me
Take me away from here
To that place, with that tree
That I teased to burn
Take me to that place we know
Where we meet
To seek comfort

I can do this. And I will do this. Because I can.

Can I?

Maybe I should sleep. Maybe.

I need a hug.

And rain.

And a miracle.