Tired.. Managed 10 hours plus in bed but didn't sleep well. Thought over plenty of stuff. Reflected on my inability to handle conflict. When will I ever grow up? When will I ever find that ability? Realised much of what I do is applied direct from TV. Too much pride, too scornful, too idealistic. Trying too hard to fit into the norm.

Thought of the stuff that happened when I was younger. The kind of person I was in relationships, how cold and unfeeling I can be then and how I lived through the period without learning anything. I don't know.

Maybe I'll blog about it later. Tired now.

Edwin Mccain - I Could Not Ask For More

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more