Angel's wings

Friday, March 31, 2006


That spot below gave me plenty of /checks but no sale. So I moved and sat with this goofy looking galka. I am hoping we look cute enough together to get people to buy-out all my bait :X We'll see.. Posted by Picasa


Hehe. Lotsa millioncorn with my mule today and so, I decided to make them into bait for the fisherman (like myself) No idea how it's going to work out but oh well, dressed in my cutesy fishing gear and a nice little flower on my head and of course, praying hard that it will attract all the hum sap tarus. With that, my little bazaar has opened its doors for business! Posted by Picasa

Thursday, March 30, 2006

w00t!!

My parents like the shoes!

And my bro been tempting me with DDO today!
He just bought a set
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Boo.
Looks not bad at the first glance.
A cross between DAoC and WoW.
Gahhh!
That n00b!
Think FF is still the one for me.
Plus....
The new expansion should be out next month!
Double w00t~
Wish there were better trailers around though.
Watched the blumage and the puppetmaster ones today.
Recorded by the NAs during an event.
Trailers were badly made, no {excitement} factor especically when it looked more like a pirated version. Eeks.

Rattling rubbish. Gonna continue with TV!

Ciaooooo! :D


Lusting after this.... Posted by Picasa


.. and this... Can anyone stop me? >< Posted by Picasa


Guess what arrived today!!! Totally made my day!!! I'm sure Winnie can understand my birki-craze!!! What a pleasant surprise! Didn't think it would come till the week after or something. I am a happy girl now. A VERY happy girl. <3 for everyone!! More <3 for birks!  Posted by Picasa


Mine.... Soooo niceeee~!!! WEEEE!! <3 <3 <3 Posted by Picasa


For my lao dou! Quite stylo and man! Hope this will help with his cracked heel problem >< Posted by Picasa


Cute little shoes for my cute little mommy! I was expecting something brighter for her cheerful nature but it's a little more muted IRL. On well. Still cute! Posted by Picasa


Joyce's pair. Very pretty!! I think I might wanna get this next time. >< Posted by Picasa


Joyce's friend's pair. Actually this looks quite pretty on the feet. Very ethnic. Posted by Picasa

Monday, March 27, 2006

Rants.

First of all, this is a rantpost. So it's nothing interesting and I'm sorry ><

To continue my rants.

Dearest friend, you mean lots to me. Are you even aware of that fact? And dearest friend, I wonder where I stand in your world. Tolerance is really not a sign of weakness but the amount of respect and love I have towards you. And yes, you are THAT important. But apparently, I don't seem to be that important to you. You don't seem to be the least bit apologetic for the mistakes you have done. I am not one to insist on an apology. All I ask for is a little less mindgames and a little more sincerity. Is that too much to ask? Need I ever ask for them in the first place? Is this how you are when u take on a different avatar? Is that who you really are inside of you? Where is the person I've always loved, admired and respected? That gentle, nice, sweet person? Or is that just a facade? Which is the real you? I cannot reconcile. I really can't.

Mind games. One thing I detest most. Mind games are kept for people you dislike. So why are you playing them with me? Please note that I am not entirely stupid. I may not be the smartest person you know, but please do know that I am not entirely dumb either. I keep quiet about many things not because I do not know what you are up to or what is going on. I keep quiet because I know too well and more importantly, because of your importance to me. Acting dumb doesn't mean I am dumb. I respect you, I cherish you, and therefore I do not wish to bruise your ego or humiliate you. This is my way of preserving your ego. I do not ask of anything in return. But could you at least reflect on your own actions instead of pinpointing others? You did wrong in the first place, so why can't you humble yourself instead of putting that fault on another's back? It is a low blow and definitely not expected from a person I deeply cherish. Please do play mindgames. I hate it. I detest it.

Mindgames from people I cherish forces me to act dumb. It's a terrible feeling. Not that I hate feeling dumb because I think I'm fabulous at it. It's how dumb you look as I pretend not to know that makes it awfully painful. It hurts because the person I play dumb to looks absolutely stupid. It hurts because the other party means something to me. Sure, for those parties involved, it might boost ur ego for the rest of your ignorant lives, but have you ever wondered how stupid you really look to everyone except yourself? I remember the day I traded a wee bit of ignorance pretense for some hard facts. The look on that face was priceless. Stupidity really bears no bounds. I am no ego monster. Which is often why I like acting stupid. I don't care if you are too eager to look smart. I don't care you need an ego boost. that's what I am here for. I may not be good at many things. But one thing I've learnt well is to make a man feel like a man. To make him feel superior? No problem. To make him feel like he has the greatest face/bod in the world? No problem. To make him feel fucking smart and wise? No problem. Just smile sweetly, shut my trap and rub him the right way. Does it make you FEEL any better? Yes of course. Does it MAKE you any better? In your dreams. I lose nothing. I am a very lazy person. Nodding quietly, making you like a million bucks work well for me. I don't have to argue senselessly with you, you feel happy, you leave me alone, I feel happy.

So back to my dearest friend. Maybe I should carry on another day. Went to game and lost my train of thought. Maybe I'll write tomorrow. Night night. /sigh.

Thursday, March 23, 2006


For dad. Understated, subdued colour with a teeny weeny bit of details (plain colours look like BKK fakes!) Posted by Picasa


For mom. Cute right?! From the kids' catalogue. (She's got small feet! :D) Posted by Picasa


And lastly, for myself. Come to mama, Baby!

{excitement}!
Can't wait for them to arrive at my doorstep!
{excitement}!
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Monday, March 20, 2006

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

Your Birthdate: May 5
You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May




AHAHAHA. I lube it. :D

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Last night was rough. Another relationship down the drain. Almost the same scenario. The same excuses. The same tell-tale signs. The same way. The same ego. Made my heart sink to know it happened to my friend. My dear friends, boys and girls alike. Please cherish what you have. Be it relationships, friends, family, belongings. Always count your blessings, because the day you stop doing so will be the day you lose everything. Good things dont keep coming your way. When you have something precious and great, don't think you deserve any better. Cause God already has given it to you. If you trade it for something less, it's just too bad for you. If you do something terrible to exchange for that piece of crap, then it's really because you are a fool. It only takes a minute for her to look back in regret but I'm pretty sure it will take the guy a lifetime to look back in regret. But at least, good riddance to bad rubbish. And everyone, do believe in karma. What you do will come back to you in turn. Do more good, you get more good. Eff up and be effed up when it comes back to you.

hey darling, you can do it. everything will be ok in time, you just need time. you deserve so much better, you know it yourself :) pain is only temporary.don't look back, this may just be the best thing that happened to you ok? everything will be just fine, you can do it!! dont bother cursing him k? will not do you any good. you dont have to wish him good if you dont wanna but at least know that he will get what he deserves k? forget him for the time being, just focus on yourself, healing yourself and loving yourself. and go shopping! hee hee! in time, everything will fall into place and you will see how blessed you are to lose a person like that in such a way. will be a blessing in disguise k? it'll be his loss and your gain! and try not to contact him k? hurts me to see that you are doing this to yourself. your own pride is more important than anything else k? hugs. there are many more others out there who cares for you, always remember that! hugs! :D cry as much as you want, but always remember to stand back up k? jiayou!!

Monday, March 13, 2006

Before I continue on yesterday's post, I would like to say something. Beeyan dahling, thank you ah!! After I saw your beautiful pictures of all the glorious food and shopping in TW, I am now struck by wanderlust!! Hahahaha! Legs itching now man. See already so very the hungry. Haha. Hugs girl. Glad you had fun and came home with a significant other :D You deserve happiness, truly in every sense! Now I wanna go to TW too! And my mom has been chionging Da Chang Jin yeaaaaaa, I wanna go to Korea too! All the food!!! really wonder how the taiwanese girls stay so slim and petite with all that food man!

*and there I went again and totally forgot about this entry =.="*

So yes, as I was saying.. Food. Yes, good food. Nevermind. Spacing off again. Treebark just showed me a picture of a cake he baked... making my hands itchy.. HAHAHAHA. Not that I have a talent for such thngs (I hink I have them, just that I haven't worked towards that direction yet :p)

So yeah, anyways, continuing from the last post.. so yea, I was talking to two of my close friends and we touched on topics on love and relationship. And a few things came to my mind.. Such as how easy it is to get over a person, but how hard it is to get over the feelings you once felt for that person. It became not a question of that person itself but that feelings that existed within you. Doesn't matter who that person, is, it can be easily replaced by another, but what you feel at that point of time is what cannot be replaced, and something that cannot be forgotten easily. It's the way you felt at that point in time, who you felt for is not important, just a fragment of your memory, but how you felt, the things you did for a person, the extent you go to, that makes it hard to forget. Time heals all wounds? Not really. Healing don't exist. Time only takes away memories of that person in question. Takes away that familiarity, and those images of that person, but it can never erase things that were inside you. That butterflies in your tummy feeling, that feelings of love that came within you.

I think many of you must be thinking "Wah she must be thinking about Andy again.." but in actual fact, nope I am not. You can only be a fool once and I'm very lucky that I don't have any reason to miss him. It helps that none of my friends are impressed by him so it makes forgetting him a whole lot easier. Oh yea, I'm done and over with! But my worries doesnt' stop just there.. I wonder if I can ever put myself and lower myself like I did. I wonder if I can ever sacrifice so much for another human being. I wonder if I can ever swallow my pride and rough myself up for a person.. I probably can't and I probably don't ever want to.. With that in mind, would I be shortchanging the next person? Would I not be giving enough to the next person? Would I even deserve the next person? I worry I can't meet the next person's expectations. I worry that I'm already spent and have nothing else to offer as a person. I worry I cannot be able to deliver that same expectations.

Took a break in between blogging and chatted with Zack for a while. Those two lovebirds crib are going to be up soon! So happy for him! So very the exciting! Hehehe, really hope one day I'll be as blissful as them! Also chatted about some other topics.. And all I want to say here is that I feel terrible sorry for him.. He has screwed up once again but I guess that's his life and he can do whatever he wants to it. You can't buy love or devotion through marriage. You can't buy feelings of security and most importantly, happiness using it. Maybe someday he will learn that lesson well and remember it.. just maybe someday.

Oh a trivial note, I was surfing the forums and some info and I only realised today that duck is white meat! Hahaha. Yes I am slow. Oh well~

Was also trolling some forum and read an interesting thread talking about sugar daddies. Makes us girls sound like complete materialistic fools huh ;) Actually to be honest, which girl doesn't want to be pampered and provided for? I'm not too keen on the idea of trading your body for his moolah but maybe those girls may have gone through tough relationships that made them think twice about love. Maybe it's just the money. But whatever it is, love ain't easy. Everyone knows it. Money in relationships complicates things as well. We aren't materialistic as per say, we are just being realistic. Some time ago, I was one of those fools who thought love was everything. Love or bread? I picked love. I thought love was the damn greatest thing alive and it could keep everything alive. True? Completely false and completely ridiculous. Saving your pennies for his food. Shelling out money for his groceries. Paying for his indulgences. Buying things he want but can't afford. Being the provider. Initially it feels ok, but as time passes by, you would feel damn lousy. Does it mean you are materialistic? No. Only realistic. How would you feel if you had to spend every penny on that person? How would you feel if you had to stop buying all your favourite things just so you could spend on the other person? Paying for his travel fares and taxi rides? Small sacrifice in the name of love? Total bullcrap :) Yes, I am materialistic and I am as materialistic as I am traditional. I don't need jewelleries or posh restaurant trips. But shouldnt the man be more of the provider? In chinese, a man who depends on a woman is called chi ruan fan. Meaning: eat soft rice. I've been through them all and I can tell you honestly you definitely won't feel like a million bucks. But at least I learnt them all. And with that, I shall never ever provide for another man ever again. I shouldn't be a provider, ever. Materialistic? I don't deny being that, so bite me :D Not saying that I don't want to pay my own share, that I would, but paying for another guy's share is totally nono unless I am giving a treat. Treat me like a lady and you will find yourself treated like a man. It's as simple as that.

Sometimes I wonder if I had nothing in my name to offer to you, would it still be ok? Would I still be that same wonderful person to you? Or would I be flawed and not nearly perfect enough?

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Been quite a while since I've updated. been really busy (read: lazy) and thus.. haha.

Probably the only reason (well actually two) is because I am rather bored and well, pretty PMSy so loads of things on my mind. Oh well, maybe I am menopausing or something :p

So here I am, blogging while my character is in-game fishing for $$. Yes I do very bo liao things but at the same time, I am passionate about my pasttime, so bite me :D

Been rather (read: mega) moody lately. One moment I'm up, the next, I'm just crashing down into the depths of endlessness. Must be a sign of old age. One moment I strong and independent, the next, I'm as needy as a 1 month old. Sigh. Double sigh.

Touched on various topics about love and relationships with two of my closest friends today. Brought back some questions and raised fears. But it also made me realised a little more about myself that perhaps existed deep within my subconcious self. Oh well maybe I'll blog about it tomorrow, whenever I am free or something. Almost 1130. Phonecall incoming. So nights everyone!!!!!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Was reading some blog and suddenly I feel like a girly girl and have a HUGE desire to have a sweet, charming and of course pretty charm-bracelet sort (feminine ma) of some kind of Hello Kitty handphone strap hanging off my sleek and chio hp. Don't ask me why. I just want to feel like not-yet-a-woman-but-not-a-girl. Must be the old age syndrome. In denial. Hahahahaa.

So wish it would turn up magically in my mailbox. I'm too lazy to be out seeking it. Must be old age I tell you.

Bah. ><

Leon's laptop is down. I'm bored out of my wits.

TV time!