Finally finished.. Time for maths.

Feeling really down now.. Consequence of the past.

Plenty to spill.. But yet I know I can't..

Need an outlet.

Sigh.

Maybe I shouldn't be so hard on myself.

Maybe.

Back to maths.

Sigh, spent all my precious hours digesting a topic I realised I didn't have to pick. Gave up. Don't understand the topic a single bit. Sigh.

Not gonna waste any more time on it. Gonna proceed to the next one. Stress.

2 more weeks... In two weeks, this time, I will be free.. I can't wait!

Sigh. I am a lazy girl. Only managed 14 slides. Head starting to feel wringed. Not too bad.. Did 4 chapters plus today.. Hai. Wish I did more.. Yawn..

Guess I should head to bed now.. Hai. So horrible! Yawn..

Bad girl!

Yawn.. Night everyone! Time to join my boy in dreamland... Yawn...

Finally done with my topic.. Time for a break. Hope to finish one more before I sleep. Tired.. But.. I need to go on.. Guess the earlier I finish the more secure I feel. Plus the option of doing a second read beats finishing up the first read at the last minute.

Sigh. My tooth still hurts and it's putting me in a really terrible mood. I think my PMS is making me feel really lousy as well... Breaking out a little so it's not doing the situation any good. Hope I start bleeding soon and have it out of my way... Sigh.

Studying makes me feel lonely.. somehow. I don't know why either. It's like you are doing something and it makes you feel a certain emotion in a unique way because your brain works in a unique manner. As a result, you feel distanced from everything else. It becomes the only routine you know - sleep, wake up, study, eat and watch cartoon, study, eat, tv, study, study, study, lonely, sleep, wake up, study, eat and watch cartoon, study, eat, tv, study, study, study, lonely, sleep etc. Yes, that is how my life goes right now. I think my only cheer is when Andy calls when I feel in touch with Life. Free from mugging, just talking nonsense and making my brain work in a more pleasant manner.

But then again. I am actually quite used to the routine. I wonder how I am going to cope with that blank routine after my exams. Would it make me feel even more alone? Actually to be honest, I think I will miss cramming. I wonder why it took me so long to realise it. Andy said we took it for granted and I guess it's true. Now that I am going to enter into a new phase in life, I am actually not looking for it. In a way, my identity has always been purely a full time student/kid for the past 23 years of my life. The only time I worked full time was a short stint of about 3 months at SPGG and I resigned from it because it was too tiring to wake up early and tahan till end of the working hour. Liddat next time how! Other than that, my working experience is zilch. And in a strange way, the thought of losing that identity feels awful. It's like you were something you were familiar with and soon you will become a nobody in search to become a somebody yet again that is totally different from who you had been previously. Am I even making sense? Stressed up..

It's hard to aspire to be that somebody in your head. It's a cruel world out there (How cruel I have yet to find out) and reality has a knack of robbing your dreams away from you. Whatever your crystal ball promised you previously now leaves you hanging by a thread. "I wish" becomes a sign of weakness because you can't go back in time to change things and can only look forward and bear the consequences of your yesterdays. I have my fair share of weaknesses, and right now, one of those things I have come to regret is why didn't I put in more effort and seek the thrill of studying. (Yes, this might come as a shock for many of you but I derive a sick pleasure from cramming :P.. But too late..)

But as what Andy told me earlier on.. I guess we can only keep trying.. Push towards our goal. If the one door closes, seek a different path to work towards that same goal. And keep trying. He never fails to amaze me with his strength and optimism in times of adversity. Shone some light into my darkness. One of the things I love about him :)

So I guess I would have to try too. Maybe my crystal ball ain't lying. Maybe reality is just preparing me to be stronger to enjoy that pot of gold that awaits me at the end of my rainbow. Till then I would just have to carry on crossing that rainbow of mine. And who knows, it might not be that long a journey afterall :)

Alrighty.. back to studying.. 2 more weeks!

My wisdom tooth on the right side's coming up.. Hurts. Been days.. Sigh. When will it go away! The pain is definitely not making me feel any better about anything. Bad time to grow teeth :( Making me more pek chek than ever. Stress is driving me nuts as usual. Sigh.

2 more weeks!

Bleah.

Sigh. Moodswings went the wrong way again.

I'm under so much stress I feel I'm snapping. It's a chore to cope, and sometimes I just can't handle it. I took a few 15 mins nap in between studying and at the end of each and every single nap, I jolted awake. I only do that when I am terrified. I am constantly freaking out. Each nap gave me intense dreams. Yes, even for 15 minutes. Sigh.

Sorry dear for that short tantrum. Didn't mean to take it on you. I just don't know how to vent it and it came out all wrong.. Sigh.

Less than 3 more weeks..... Let me survive.. Please?

What happened?

I remembered distinctively that I set the alarm for 9 am before I went to bed last night. For some reason, it never went off. And went I checked, the alarm was set to 'off'. What happened?

I had a long night as well. I dreamt of a bloodthirsty demon, firefighting, an explosion and climbing up stairs and jumping off buildings. I dreamt of Horatio. I dreamt of many terrible things. I dreamt of cheerleading girls in danger. I dreamt of darkness and dead bodies. I dreamt of long corridors echoing death and fear. It was terrible. I was part of the saving force.

I am disturbed.

Headache still there.

Many hours lost.

Sigh.

Managed only 6 formulae.

I can't do this tonight.

I need to seek comfort under my sheets. To find that tree.

In the past minute, this popped into my head. Humans are born strong but deluded by reality to become weak. Adversity unravels our true form but time serves to compete against it.

Just my two cents worth. Maybe I should practice what I preach.

Tomorrow. A better day? Let's hope so.

Night everyone. Hope to uncover my 'true form' in my sleep tonight. Sweetest dreams to everyone.

I wish for 2 things tonight:
To become almightyly intelligent and churn out correct answers to any question at light speed.
To be blessed with permanent photographic memory so I can remember every single thing I see on my notes and my textbook.

Pretty please? Grant me my wishes.

Hugs.

Happy 21st month Darling :)

Going through the drill.

My head hurts. Been hurting all of yesterday after my exam till now. Been feeling crappy all day. Been knocking out each time after I took panadol. Been feeling spaced out. It's already Wednesday as I speak.

Tonight, I feel like I cannot do this anymore. My head hurts and I feel so drained. I slept all day and I still feel horrid. I just wanna break down and cry and wish that everything goes away. Nothing seem to be able to get into my head.

It's just 3 more weeks.. So near yet so far.. I don't know how I am going to cope. I am just bursting out of my seams. I am terrified..

I feel totally drained out. So drained.. So tired.. How do I do this. Sigh. Under so much stress.. If only I can wish for all these to go away.

How can I be strong?

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe...

Take me
Take me away from here
To that place, with that tree
That I teased to burn
Take me to that place we know
Where we meet
To seek comfort

I can do this. And I will do this. Because I can.

Can I?

Maybe I should sleep. Maybe.

I need a hug.

And rain.

And a miracle.

Finished my notes finally.. So drained right now. Very very tired. Dunno why.. Fell asleep a couple of times earlier on for like 10 to 15 mins per doze. So drained.

Worried I won't be able to fall asleep tonight. Sigh.

Should I just take it easy after dinner and just chill out and watch TV? Sigh. So drained. But don't wanna feel guilty. Blah. Maybe I should just watch a little TV and read my notes again. Feeling so lethargic now.

*Stretches lazily*

So very tired now. Sigh. Just got up.. Hope I can sleep tonight.

Had a rough time sleeping last night. Too much integration and differentiation. Brain was formulating so many equations and formulae at light speed.

Yawn. Gonna be a long day! Tomorrow's my macro paper. Nervous.

I realised that the key to my contentment and perhaps, simple bliss comes from simplication of things. My little 'dictionary' is more like ABC for Kindergarden kids than Oxford. Hehe. But I guess I don't really care. Because I got what I want and I am happy.

Yawn. Time to wash up and start my day. Yawn. Lalala.

Almost 3.. Yawn.. MM is driving me crazy. So worried about it now. Sigh. So much to cover, plus it's Math! Need to pract as well. Sigh. Stress :( Got three papers in June. MM and two theory. Scary.. On the brighter note, less than 3 weeks to the start of freedom :) I can't wait!

My boy's at Zouk with his classmates right now. Boo hoo. Wish I am there too :( Craving margaritas.. Boo!

Alrighty. Back to my practising. Sigh.. Integration sucks :(

Hungry :(

Thank you darling for being there for me when I needed you. For the words of encouragement that meant so much. For believing in me :) You made me feel a whole lot better :)

Okie. Back to studying. Yawn.

Sigh.. Gonna be a long weekend. Mug mug mug mug mug.

Stressed up. Nauseous. Bloated.

All alone.
Fighting my own battle.
When will it ever end?

Hey girls.. wish I can be out having fun with u peeps. Sigh. Make up to you peeps after my exams ya?

Alone in my little world.
I am invisible.
Exams.. Be gone.

Stress.

Woke up this morning to this in ST Life!! Hehe, that's Andy brother(extreme left)'s band!! Great album! So go down to HMV to purchase a copy k!! Wahaha! Celebrities!!! I KNOW CELEBRITIES! WAHAHAHAA! 

Pretty cards for sale! The picture doesn't do this justice, the actual one looks lovelier. Anyone interested? Can MSN me and ask for details =D Helping someone to advertise. It's really pretty and unique!! Many other designs are available! 

Covered 5 topics today.. 7 more to go.. Studied some of them before, don't seem to remember them. Scared. Sigh. So worried I'll forget them again.. Sigh.. Any instant memory boost technique? Sigh..

Tired.. :(

Persevere!!!

Sigh.

Happy 23rd Birthday to my Sweetest Beeyan!

How time flies, we've been friends for almost ten years now! Wow! Thank you for always being there for me, especially of recent. You are an inspiration and most definitely a source of strength. Been a magical journey. You have always been there for me, to make merry, to hold my hand, to cry for me, to soothe my pain, and most importantly, to bitch and listen! You've always been a sister I never had.

On this special day, I wish for God to grant you happiness and abundant love from all who surrounds you. To be given the joy you have showered upon us as your friends and loved ones. To bring that special someone one step closer into your life with each passing day and give you the love and bliss that you deserve!

Happy Birthday Sweetheart. Love you loads!

Quote of the day:

While playing with my brother earlier on, I called him Chest Big Big (All Leon's fault!!) and he grabbed me. Afterwards he took the chance and tried to grab me and tickle me again. But being me, the Queen of Quick Responses, I called for my Mum and then she said this:

"Boy, don't bully girl girl ah, she sam por sam por (meaning skinny skinny), her bones very fragile, later she ar ar ji (meaning bones break)."

Wah sey.. Mummy say that.. heart pain pain more than hands pain pain leh. Stop at the first sentence cannot meh!

Yay, I gained one kg after dinner =D

To the woman I most love, respect and admire.

Happy Birthday Mummy. Another year added to your age and another year less left for us to be together. When I was younger, I always thought you will be always around. To always hold my hand, to give me plenty of hugs and constant reassurance that you love me and that I am your xin gan bao bei. To have you to greet me Good Morning Darling! every morning when I wake up to wash up for school up to today!

Now that I am older, and with age catching up on me, I too realise that age is catching up with you. But, your spirit remained the same as it was 10, 20 years ago. That smile of yours, that laughter, that teasing never changed. Your heart never aged a single bit. This is what kor and I loved about you. Your spirit. Always cheerful, always loving. When you found out kor smoked, you didn't scold. You nagged in a humorous way that made us laugh. Telling him to save more for cancer treatments. Haha. You kept our secrets from Daddy, gently reminding us to stop certain bad behaviour. And ending the nag by calling me a 'naughty girl' after that.

You taught us to learn that happiness is the most important thing one should be after. You taught us to appreciate little things in life. To love all life, even that of an insect. That health and happiness and who we are are more important than material wealth. That we should always be nice to people until provoked. And when provoked, we should stand up for ourselves and put up a fight for things worth fighting for. You had always been spunky. I remember the many times I had wanted to switch classes from the best to the second best class just so I could be with my friends. Many parents would insist that I stay in that best class. But you did not. You called my principal and asked for a transfer, coming up with silly excuses on your own. Our plan didn't succeed but your spunk left a deep impression on me.

I remember the days when we had to visit the hospital so very often for my brain checkup. How you would always knit your brows when you see me coming out of the CTscan room with bruised wrists and bruised arms from all the needles. Like how you put up a strong front, even though your heart was aching because I had to go through so much pain. Like how you would keep saying 'poor thing' and keep soothing me and clasping my hands to make me feel better and loved. How you would always tell me that I am fine, and that it's just a checkup. Like how you cried the time the doctor said I might have a tumour growing inside my brain. Like how happy you looked when we realised the doctor was just bullshitting. Like how we badmouthed the doctor on our way home. Tsk tsk.

You always had a funny take when talking to me about the birds and the bees. Telling me that abortion is evil and that puppy love are meant for puppies. I always felt very paiseh but you always pressed on, making sure that all the information gets processed in my thick skull. Times like those, upon hearing your little 'speech', I get confused as to whether to roll over in laughter and amusement or to cower in embarrassment.

I remember the day I cried and you held me when I did badly for my exams. I felt I had failed you but you reassured me that I didn't. That I should work harder the next time. I remember all the days you would gently remind me to study and not play too much games 'meant for boys'. That's how you are Mummy. Always gentle and loving. You have never scolded me in a harsh tone before. Naggings were always humorous and sometimes, mean. But always meant to make me smile, never meant to make me cry. You are always kind so us. I remember the time when Xiao Yee joked that you were fierce to her. But that is a side I never knew, and will never know, because to us, you are the most loving person in the world.

Not too long ago, you were there for me to ease my pain. To forgive me and to give me your blessings. To teach me about love, about patience, about courage, about acceptance. To give and take, to trust, to have faith. You gave me strength and confidence. Thank you for slowly accepting Andy. For savouring the cake we baked for you. For repeatly telling me it's delicious and that Andy is very nice to have done that. It made me really glad.

Just yesterday, after yoga, I was amused when you held my hand and kissed it and lamented that I was getting thinner by the day and how you have great plans to fatten me up after my exams. I was deeply grateful and although all I did was to hold your hand tightly, your words meant a lot to me.

Soon, I will be embarking onto a new chapter in my life and I cannot wait to provide the best for you. Just like how you've given me your best. I don't know how much time there will be left for us to be with each other. And if I may, I would put it as infinity. It scares me every time to realise that at the end of the day, I would lose you. But starting today, I would cherish every single moment we have. I thank God for giving me the best mother any child can wish for. Thank you Mummy, for loving me so abundantly and for all the hugs and kisses even at 23!

Happy Birthday Mummy. I love you.

Cold, rainy day.. Best time to dive under the sheets to cuddle up and snooze.. Yawn.. Brrrr.. So colddddddd!

Alright, time to cuddle up with my notes under the sheets. Have to make do with what I have. Haha.

Have a good day at work Darling!

Happy Birthday Mummy!

Today, just wanna believe that everything belongs to me. Believe that everything is mine.. Simply because I believe so. Wanna embrace it and deny it no more.

It's all ours when we believe. It's only when we stop believing that we lose focus of our anchor points.

That common destination. I don't wanna deny it no more. It's a road I want to take and I shall embrace it with positivity. And taking that road with you is such a blessing. I don't want to deny it no more. There's that possibility and I am going to try to turn that possibility into reality. I am not afraid. Because at this moment I have you.

Saw this on FP. Awwww.. it's so sweet!

. . . . .

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation I asked him if he had a doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.

I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease. As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him. "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is."

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life." True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

. . . . .

I think one of the happiest things everyone can hope for is to find someone who accepts and love them for who they are.. It's only then that they are truly perfect in another's eyes. In every single way. The good, the bad, the best, and the worst.

You are perfect in my eyes, in each and every single way :)

Just had dinner.. So full.. Appetite's a little down today. Think I ate late plus I am a little tired.

So anyways, weekend was good!

Met up with the girls, wacked the food at aijisen.. Been a long time since we met up and been an even longer time since I had ajisen. Yum yum...! Chatted and bitched about interviews, work, life and the future. Fun and insightful. Got some interview tips as well, and learnt something new about my dearest girls. Was fun :)

Spent plenty of time with Andy as well, so was happy. Went to the kitty store on Saturday to look at cats. Hehe. Went over to his parents' place to play mahjong afterwards. Ethan is soooo adorable! Played with him and hes sooo cute! He kept chuckling when I made funny faces at him. Andy and I took him to play with the stairs after that. That little one loves walking up and down the stairs. Haha. Was soo cute and each time you try to *rush* him up the stairs and *catch* him, he'll squeal with excitement and open his mouth wide open with that adorable chuckle! He's sooo cute and sooo smart! Was happy to see that he's getting attached to Andy. Hehe, Had to bend our backs while climbing the stairs while playing with him and we ended up having sore backs. Haha. Especially my poor boy. But it was so fun nonetheless! All three of us were sweating like nuts after that. Haha.

Went to J8 afterwards to catch a midnight movie with Zack and Ju. Coach Carter again, not that I minded 'cause I think it's a really good show!

And that dreaded latte! Haha.

So that was my weekend! New week ahead. Whcih means studying and more studying. Boo. Oh well, one month more :) Just rough it out for another month more and I'll be freeeeeeeee!

Hugs Darling! Proud of you :)

Caffeine and over-loaded imagination don't go well together. I've said something I have regretted saying. And it sucks. I wanna take it back. i realise it makes no sense at all. Why worry when I trust. It's so silly. And I am so stupid. I should never drink lattes at midnight. What the hell was I thinking. I so regret sprouting nonsense. Bah. Brainless chick.

Oh well, Back to my normal self again, except with a little regret.

It's stupid, ignore it ok? Take it back. Because it's senseless. Dunno what the hell I am thinking. Bleah. So dumb.

Anyway, the weekend was good. Met the girls, met Andy. So I'm happy :) Hehe. So tired now. Yawn. Sleepy. Got good stuff to intro you guys later. Pretty cards!

Maybe I'll blog more later. Right now, I feel like the latte pretty much killed most if not all of my brain cells. I feel so spaced out. Yawn.

I am happy. Busy, tired, but happy. Plenty of thoughts, no one to share it with. Yawn. I am tired. Sleeeeepy!

By the way.. Newsflash.. Andy got an A for his first exam!!!! Plus that boy didn't study that much, ain't he a genius!! So happy. A is the top grade =D

You make me so proud and you make me so happy :) Thanks for giving me such a wonderful weekend :) Big hugs!

"There is a possibility that you might be the one... "

I like the sound of it. Reassuring. Contented. :)

Be positive!

Been crunching numbers.. till my pens dried out. Yeap.. All 6 of them. And yep, I am a huge fan of G-Tec since JC. Haha. Tomorrow's my Accounting paper. Pray for me.. :) 

Woke up at close to eleven this morning. This is so NOT what I have intended. Had initially planned to wake up at 9 so that I would be exhausted by the end of tonight, giving me enough hours for that good sleep before my examination tomorrow.

But noOoooo.. the alarm went off at 9, and I pressed snooze every ten minutes in that darn groggy state, all the way before 11 when I finally got up in shock.

Crap. I need some love.

Feeling really nervous now. I am scared.

Had a weird dream last night. I dreamt I was out with the girls, and Char was there. And we went grocery shopping at the supermarket. And we saw huge prawns that was lime green - yellow in colour. Among other weird things. Oh well. I can't think now. Gotta save some cells for my revision later.

Still a tad groggy. Slept really late last night. Did some work till around 2 and read till maybe 230? The strong winds kept me awake till 3? Could hear and feel it hitting against my closed windows. And my room was freezing. I think cold air got fed into the aircon, blowing out freezing air. Brrr. For a split second, I was worried that my windows might shatter under the pressure. Haha. Yea, it was that scary. The howling, the shaking, could hear glass/items getting broken, things moving etc. Scary.

Okay, back to studying. No time to waste! Wanna complete as much as it takes to make me feel slightly more at else before dinner. Else tonight sure kancheong spider. Stress. Ganbatte!

Miss you. Hope you are working hard too!

Panicking..

I am really scared.

*Beams*

My boy figured out I Miss You on his own. Felt wonderful when he called and played it on the guitar over the phone. Yup, there's a guitar in the office (studio). How cool is that :)

*Beams*

Happy.

I'm figuring out my section A questions. Slowly but surely.

It's raining lightly outside as well.

Happy day.

I am stressed up, but happy, especially after hearing him play that song I so love. He's a genius, doncha think? ;)

*Beams*

Back to kicking Accounting's ass =D

Went for yoga today after a two week break.. and hell man, I can feel the difference. For one, I really my hip bones seem to be jutting out a little more. and when I do certain poses, it feels different because I can feel my bones hitting the mat. It's a stupid feeling. I need some cushioning.

Need to try and hit 40 kg at least. Darn. More milk. I should start snacking more.

It's not even 1 and I am feeling sleepy. I am realllly growing old. Don't snigger, a bunch of your birthdays are coming up. So, welcome to the old ladies club. :D

Read my notes, time for some leisure reading before I hit the sack. Nighttttt...! Hope to be up at 9 tomorrow... Hur.

Oh crap. I lost weight again. I am at my skinnest now at 38kg. Crap. I need to fatten up. Can't wait for exams to be over. It's killing my appetite. Craaaaaap!!!!!

Swayed by..
That gentle voice..
That gentle gaze..
Those gentle words..

At this moment..
I am contented.
And happy.

Back to my books.
Renewed confidence in my accounting.
Slighty, but it beats nothing at all.
Wow.
Today is a good day.
:)

CRAPLOADS of CSI tonight! Wee hee! Downloading tonight's DH so I won't miss any of my shows! Wee Heeeeeee~

Back to crunching numbers.
:)

Weekend came, and gone.. Had a good one and now it's the start of a brand new week.

Lots gonna be happening this week. Andy's starting his classes and I am having my first paper on Friday. Nightmare! Accounting! I am very freaked out.

Haven't been eating much lately. The stress is getting to me. I am barely enjoying food that goes into my mouth these days. I think I lost quite a bit of weight. Sigh. Can't wait for exams to be over! Exams fever. So scared!

Stress. Okie dokz. Back to studying. Woke up at like 2 pm today. Stayed up with Andy till like 5 am baking cheesecakes for our mothers. Haha. And now I am feeling sleepy again. Darn.. Gonna go study a little before I K.O.

Night peeps!

Had a great time this evening. Andy took me out for dinner at the Rice Table. Pigged out. Kinda regretted taking my lunch late. Didn't manage to eat as much as I would like to. It's either my appetite is shrinking and I am really starting to eat like a bird (I doubt so) or the late lunch did me in. None the less it was fun! Hehe. Bet my boy wanted to bite into chunks of meat like steak.. Hehe, next time okie?

Caught Coach Carter after that. Nice show. Moving and inspirational!And darn. Cost 8 bucks on Thursday. Not used to the price hike. $%^&* Hehe, I've never seen Andy play Bball before though.. Hmmm.. Next time next time...!

Thanks everyone for making my birthday a special one. Especially to my Darling. Thank you for being there to start my birthday and being there again to end it. Meant a lot to me and made my birthday really special! Big hugs! You're truly amazing!

And to everyone who had taken time off to wish me, thanks a lot! I really appreciate it! Hugs to you peeps too!

The Birthday Celebration Part II.. Starring the Birthday Princess (ME!) Muahaha... 

..The Handsome.. 

..and Pouty Prince.. 

At Rice Table.. 

...pigging out... 

Yum..  

Taurus Aries

This is an exciting combination - one filled with passion and pleasure!! If your rising signs and other astrological factors agree, there is even a high probability that you will marry some day!

You have a natural affinity for each other, feel very comfortable together, and can experience a very nourishing and intimate closeness. Even if your personalities are very different, you understand each other very well and you are truly friends as well as lovers.

If you have children together, you will work well together as parents and Taurus, in particular, will prove to be very devoted to the family. Taurus also helps, supports, and accepts Aries, who gains much confidence and energy when the two of you are together.

There is a deep, and developing mutual appreciation of each other and you should endeavor to work at deepening this bond.

***

Heh. 15 minutes break over. Back to studying.. zZzz! 5 more weeks!

Silly boy got me this too :) 

Weeeee! 

Wow.. My 23rd birthday falls on 05-05-05. Nice number. Special one :)

Special thanks to...

Hao and Jer. Thanks guys for the dinner and the evening out! I had a great great time and sorry la.. can't go JB.. Next time okie. Really enjoyed myself! Thanks for the great company! You guys are very sweet!

Leon. Hey Di, thanks for messaging me from all the way there past mignight! Miss ya!

Jason. Thanks bro! Miss your bai kar jokes.

Nana: Thanks sis :) Hugs.

Xiaocong: Hey girl! Thanks for the well wishes all the way from Auzzie! Was great hearing your voice! Hehe, your boy boy was very guai yesterday! he did a great job entertaining me =D You have a smashing boyfriend!

My girls. Thanks sweeties for the well-wishes :)

My primary school friends. Dont think they'll be reading this, but thanks for the smses! Very kind of you guys to remember! :)

JC and sec school friends. Thanks for the messages! :)

SIM friends. Thanks babesssss! :)

My family. They probably won't get to read this but.. thank you for always being there for me. For the unconditional love that you have showered upon me for the past 23 years. And for treating me like a little girl. Sometimes it gets on my nerves but many times, it makes me realised how cherished I am. I feel very blessed.

God. Thank You.

Last but not least.. Special thanks to Andy. Thank you dearest for spending yet another birthday with me. My second one with you. Thank you for the wonderful present and the wonderful birthday songs at midnight. I am very touched and overwhelmed. You have always delivered what you say and this time, it is no exception. Thank you for growing up with me. The journey you took with me in the past year has been amazing and no words can express how thankful I am for having you in my life. And I look forward to bringing you as much joy as you have brought into my life. Words just ain't enough.. especially when I am lousy when it comes to expressing myself.. so I can only let my actions speak for itself in the days to come. Thank you for everything! I love you.

Woke up feeling the jitters and butterflies in my tummy. Examination fever! Getting into the swing of things, I hope. Think I'm gonna just finish up my current econs topic and move to another subject. Need to spread out the eggs and not put them in just one basket.

Yesterday was nice. Was craving seafood and went out for a seafood feast for my birthday with my family at this chinese seafood restaurant in Tiong Bahru area. Very old-school! Haha. Glad we got there early and managed to get a seat inside the restaurant with airconditioning. Would probably have died if I had to sit outside. The food was consistently good, especially the crabsss! Yummy. Too bad no fried mantou :( The buttered cereal prawns was good too.. and to be honest, Andy's version tasted pretty much like that! Haha. Except their prawns was a lot crispier. But taste wise, it's almost the same =D Was happy :)

Got home, rested a bit and watched some CSI. Wah, AXN has like CSI almost everyday. Haha. 9-10 CSI:NY, 10-11 CSI:Las Vegas. On Tuesdays that is. Those people must be plenty lots of moolah.

Alrighty. Time to get my day going.. Yawn.. so lazy. I am growing old.. Okie, tata!

Guy Sebastian - Angels Brought Me Home

[Verse 1]
It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

[Bridge]
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Verse 2]
Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

[Bridge 2]
My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Bridge 3]
Brought me here to be with you,I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

[Chorus]
If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Woke up this morning to a very pleasant review in ST Life section on Tan Pin Pin's shortfilm, Singapore Gaga. The subheading reads: "Well-shot sights and sounds of the everyday make a great home grown film." In the article, it says ' Tan's quirky tapstry is loosely woven around the theme of music and soundscape. What emerges is a wonderfully textured mediation, not only about music and the way people listen to it, but also how Singaporeans and how we relate to each other and our country.'

I am beaming right now with so much pride. Why? Because Andy did the sounds editing from the film. The inital sound recordings were like crap. He made adjustments to them, plenty of adjustments. I remembered that hell week, he worked so hard with the crappy audio recordings that they provided him with, and did so much work to them that yielded this wonderful review. I am happy. Happy that his hardwork paid off. Weeee!

So proud of him. So so proud!

Alrighty. Great way to start my day. He's gonna be hard at work today for 12 hours straight! Amazing. I should too! Gonna go showered before I start mugging. Weee!

Oh happy day! =D

Hur hur.. Got cheated today.. Went for yoga class. Or rather, for a yoga class that wasn't scheduled to happen! Ya ya, I know it's a public holiday but the teacher usually would remind us but she didn't mention anything on the last class. Oh well. Might as well. Pretty tired actually. Covered two topics for my econs today. I am officially left with 4 chapters before I complete econs. BUT, I have no idea how much I actually remembered. Sigh. I probably have to look through them again. Sigh. I am so stressed up :(

Less than two weeks before the start of my first paper. Less than 6 weeks before the end of my university life. Praying hard I make it!

I can't wait. Weeeeeeeee!

Yawn. Took a nap. Just had dinner. Gonna start studying soon. I am so stressed up. Less than two weeks before the start of my first nightmare - Accounting paper! Help! Really scared.

It's labour day today, so yeah, Happy Labour Day to all slaves of our economy. Tomorrow's a PH but oh well, doesn't make a difference to me. Pooi. Stress!

And I feel slow.. after the whole world's into CSI, I am only starting to get hooked on that darn fine show. All thanks to Andy and the training, I am now more courageous when it comes to images of bullets puncturing the skull into the brain, bursting a few arteries here and there in slow motion mode. And what! Horatio is dating a hot chick! Migosh! Okaaaaaaaay, I have to admit that old man is really charismatic and cool.. Still water runs deep. Think Miami is better. Oh well, maybe it's 'cause they have Horatio and company. I like that blonde girl, whatever her name is, and that female forensic, Alex or something.

Hehe, had Sakae last night for dinner as well. Thanks Darling! Was yummilicious plus I got to eat it with him, hehe he doesn't usually take Jap. Thankies! Appreciate it =D

Okay, rest time's up. Time to start studying. Stress stress stress stress.... Scared.

On my way home earlier, I saw/witnessed something amazing. No idea how to tell since I don't think words will do what I saw justice.

I feel a wave of calm right now but at the same time, thrilled like a little child.

Wow..

Somewhere beyond the horizon.. is a bright light.. where His presence is felt. Settling you down, but drawing your spirits towards Him.. towards His kingdom. Overwhelmed. It's an inexplicable feeling. His presence is vast, and it's like He fills the entire universe. But at the same time.. it seems as if it's just you and Him.. His presence speaks, and it leaves you mesmerised and in awe.

Am I making sense? May not be to you..

But today.. I think I saw a glimpse of heaven and God.