Dilly in the command deck. 
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Friday, September 24, 2004
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You are Brown Sheep type, who seem to be well composed and calm. Your personality is also very gentle and never forgets consideration for others.But you believe you are the best. You are a proud person, and only to those that you have become real friends, would you show this side of your personality.You have a will power and a smart mind to carry out a business from planning to sales to marketing all by yourself. You have a brilliant intuitive ability. You can use this ability in personal relationships, and effectively induce the other person's psychology. Even if the other person was insisting on black, you can easily lead him/her into choosing white. It is easy for you to persuade people.You ought to be in an environment where duty and obligation is thought highly of. You are good at exercising power over someone who respects duty and obligation.Because your point of observation is rather different from that of ordinary people, you can come up with extremely unique ideas. Nevertheless you lack decision making and putting into action. Also because you are an optimistic person, you tend to act as though you have already succeeded, even if you have not yet done so.You may experience great failure, if you get carried away too much. You must be very careful.
You are Brown Sheep type, who seem to be well composed and calm. Your personality is also very gentle and never forgets consideration for others.But you believe you are the best. You are a proud person, and only to those that you have become real friends, would you show this side of your personality.You have a will power and a smart mind to carry out a business from planning to sales to marketing all by yourself. You have a brilliant intuitive ability. You can use this ability in personal relationships, and effectively induce the other person's psychology. Even if the other person was insisting on black, you can easily lead him/her into choosing white. It is easy for you to persuade people.You ought to be in an environment where duty and obligation is thought highly of. You are good at exercising power over someone who respects duty and obligation.Because your point of observation is rather different from that of ordinary people, you can come up with extremely unique ideas. Nevertheless you lack decision making and putting into action. Also because you are an optimistic person, you tend to act as though you have already succeeded, even if you have not yet done so.You may experience great failure, if you get carried away too much. You must be very careful.
05/05/1982 - Me
You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman. Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems. You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments. You weakness is that you lack endurance.You are born good natured and a hard working person. But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness. This makes you have a disadvantage. Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly. You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea. You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife.
You are Brown Wolf, who is innocent, pure and honest type of woman. Although you seem like a difficult person to get to know, and the way you are indifferent to your surroundings makes you seem like a saucy person, you really are generous and do not think much about your own advantages.You are not a sentimental sort of person, and will go on no matter how difficult it seems. You are also able to take on lots of duties at once.You can not stay in one place for a long time, and will go on moving on to new environments. You weakness is that you lack endurance.You are born good natured and a hard working person. But you can not carry things out efficiently, and lacks neatness. This makes you have a disadvantage. Nevertheless, you have great inquiring mind, and to something that interests you, you will go investigating into it deeply and thoroughly. You will be able to find and come out with your own unique idea. You don't care what the others think of you, and will stay faithful to your own way of living.You don't look back to your past or keep on dreaming about the future. You stay in put with reality.You are rather optimistic, and can overcome any situation quite easily.After getting married, you will be a family loving devoted housewife.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
So cute!!!! A diluted opal platinum campbell. So cute right!!!! It's so adorable!! If I own them, I would call one snow and the other white. Look at the precious one with the little black lining on his ears! AHAHAHA so cute!!!! I want!! *gush*
Yawn. Bedtime. So tired right now. But a little hungry still.
Today was a pretty good day! Got to see Andy. Yay! Met up with him after his work. Was nice. Glad to see him. 3 more days before I get to see him again. Boo hoo!
Went to pizza hut. DInner was awkward. Tempers flared a little as we were both hungry (me especially) Sorry dearie for being such a bitch about things. Really just wanted to let you eat what you like. All I wanted was food in my mouth. Meat, carbon, fats and calories. Really didn't care what was on the table.. As long as you like it I'm fine. Sorry for the tantrums. Just really didn't have anything in mind. Was hungry, so food is food, didn't matter what. Hugs. I really had wanted it to be pleasant and satisfying. Sorry for killing your appetite.. But at least you have more than half a pizza sittng in your fridge now! :)
Things got better after that. A hungry man is an angry man, and since I was full, I was fine again. PMSing again. Could feel my moods swinging.. sorry :( Walked around and he finally got his Levi's. Nice colour. hehe. Next time must get the other one ok! I like that other colour. The washed out colour. Looks like my other baggy pair. Couple jeans ma!! Was so tempted to get another pair. Gah...!
Went to Carrefour and walked around, looking at groceries, etc etc. Duno why but I LOVE looking at groceries. It's just so fun. So auntie right. Haha. But I don't care HAHHA. SO fun. Doing it with Andy is especially fun. We sometimes end up buying so much stuff. Haha. Yummie.
Walked a little more and headed back home. Poor boy was carrying so much stuff. Grocery bags, jeans bag and a huge pizza box in another bag. Haha. Muacks.
He's in dreamland now. I probably should go to bed now. Seeing my girls tomorrow! Yaaay! Char, come back soon! We are still short of you!!! Hugs.
Night everyone! Hugs. Muacks dearie! Love you.
Today was a pretty good day! Got to see Andy. Yay! Met up with him after his work. Was nice. Glad to see him. 3 more days before I get to see him again. Boo hoo!
Went to pizza hut. DInner was awkward. Tempers flared a little as we were both hungry (me especially) Sorry dearie for being such a bitch about things. Really just wanted to let you eat what you like. All I wanted was food in my mouth. Meat, carbon, fats and calories. Really didn't care what was on the table.. As long as you like it I'm fine. Sorry for the tantrums. Just really didn't have anything in mind. Was hungry, so food is food, didn't matter what. Hugs. I really had wanted it to be pleasant and satisfying. Sorry for killing your appetite.. But at least you have more than half a pizza sittng in your fridge now! :)
Things got better after that. A hungry man is an angry man, and since I was full, I was fine again. PMSing again. Could feel my moods swinging.. sorry :( Walked around and he finally got his Levi's. Nice colour. hehe. Next time must get the other one ok! I like that other colour. The washed out colour. Looks like my other baggy pair. Couple jeans ma!! Was so tempted to get another pair. Gah...!
Went to Carrefour and walked around, looking at groceries, etc etc. Duno why but I LOVE looking at groceries. It's just so fun. So auntie right. Haha. But I don't care HAHHA. SO fun. Doing it with Andy is especially fun. We sometimes end up buying so much stuff. Haha. Yummie.
Walked a little more and headed back home. Poor boy was carrying so much stuff. Grocery bags, jeans bag and a huge pizza box in another bag. Haha. Muacks.
He's in dreamland now. I probably should go to bed now. Seeing my girls tomorrow! Yaaay! Char, come back soon! We are still short of you!!! Hugs.
Night everyone! Hugs. Muacks dearie! Love you.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Feeling really really tired this morning. Was suppose to get up at 9. I did, at about 8 plus but couldnt tear myself away from my bed. Aching all over.
Yesterday was nice! Went to school in the morning and went to Andy's place after that. Went grocery shopping, bought stuff for our dinner and started preparing. Took me hours!! Washed the dishes, cleaned up and waited for him to come back home. Bought prawns, crabs (wanted to try this deep fried crab thingie Cindy taught me), veggies, chicken and various sauces needed.
Watched a bit of friends and started cooking since he was on his way home. The prawn tempura doesn't look very tempura. Hideous looking actually. But actually tastes pretty nice with the ketchup-plum sauce I made for the crab. The crab tasted funny.. Need to find out if thats the right way to do it.. Veggies were.. err I don't know I didn't eat much.. SHould be ok though. I like the chicken best. Nicely deep-fried. The instant lemon sauce I bought wasn't that bad either. Finished everything I made (Yay) except the crabs. Too stuffed.
Had a good talk with him before heading home.
Bah, time to get ready for school. Seeing my girls tomorrow! Yay! Muacks to you all! Love you dearie!! Muah muahhhhh!!!!!!!!
Yesterday was nice! Went to school in the morning and went to Andy's place after that. Went grocery shopping, bought stuff for our dinner and started preparing. Took me hours!! Washed the dishes, cleaned up and waited for him to come back home. Bought prawns, crabs (wanted to try this deep fried crab thingie Cindy taught me), veggies, chicken and various sauces needed.
Watched a bit of friends and started cooking since he was on his way home. The prawn tempura doesn't look very tempura. Hideous looking actually. But actually tastes pretty nice with the ketchup-plum sauce I made for the crab. The crab tasted funny.. Need to find out if thats the right way to do it.. Veggies were.. err I don't know I didn't eat much.. SHould be ok though. I like the chicken best. Nicely deep-fried. The instant lemon sauce I bought wasn't that bad either. Finished everything I made (Yay) except the crabs. Too stuffed.
Had a good talk with him before heading home.
Bah, time to get ready for school. Seeing my girls tomorrow! Yay! Muacks to you all! Love you dearie!! Muah muahhhhh!!!!!!!!
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Weekend's good. I love to rest. Especially now that I have to go to school or give tuition every single weekend plus a Sat. Extremely tiring. Been only a week and I've fallen sick as a result. Much better now.
Yesterday started off bad but ended off great. Night before I was having a runny nose and all and at night, I was all feverish and felt really crap. Didn't sleep the entire night. Alternating between nightmares, flash dreams, shivering, sweating and a 2-tonne head. Woke up at 7 to get ready for school. But felt way too crappy to attend class in that state. So made a call to him and made my way to his place instead. Didn't want to let my parents know I'm ill or it'll ruin my chances of seeing him during the weekend. A long journey. Surprised I made it all the way to his doorstep. Must be the crappiest feeling to be walking alone when you are ill. Wished he was there at the bus stop, there walking to be me, on his way, etc. But zilch. Must have felt a stab of pain then. But oh well, too bad for me, he fell asleep. Sad. Only woke up again when I was across the street. Oh well. Tough luck.
I felt so much better with him around, getting sayang, and all. And by the time it was 10, I was already feeling better. SOmehow, dunno why. Aunty Shirley then messaged me to join her for chinese church. Asked Andy and was asked to join his church instead. In the end, his parents sent us and his sister to church while they went to attend chinese church. Felt really bad for not joining though. First time I went to a service. Pretty interesting I must say. Was peaceful and nice.
After that, we headed back to his place for lunch. Was yummie. Ate a lot. Went back to his place after that. Cleaned up the cage while he watched some celebrity poker. Cleaned all the parts hoping to remove the scent of the babies. Sigh. Miss them.. If they didn't die, they should be covered in a little fur now.. running around squealing for Dilly's attention.. and Dilly would be busying bringing them back to the nest they strayed from.. Oh well. Guess it's not meant to be for now. They are probably somewhere else where they are growing up strong and healthy. Oh well. Andy did a very nice setup for their cage. The loop tube is now flat instead of standing up. Very interesting! Hehe. ANd nice. Think it's better also. Then can see them more clearly. Hehe.
Decided to cook dinner in the last minute since I bought an extra leg the other night. Andy loved the chicken chop I made and I was itching to try it again. Marinated the chicken chop with big onions, garlic, spring onions and mushrooms and plenty of other sauces and seasoning. Loved it. had it was the left over mashed potato. Yummie! I have to say my whipped potato tastes really good.. HAhahahahh~ Lotsa butter, garlic salt and a pinch of crushed black pepper.. Wicked! Toasted up the instant fried chicken and wedges we got from ntuc and tada~ we have a meal! Was good! We also had baby thai cucumbers with peanut butter-ketchup sauce. Sounds gross right, but it's actaully very very good! Hmm.. feeling like eating it again. Tastes like satay sauce except its not spicy. It's very nice and tangy. The meal was good. Ha.. I am itching to cook again! HAHAHAH. Weeheeeeeeeee!
Rushed to meet the rest after dinner. Had an awkward time sitting in the foodcourt coz there was so many of us sitting around a small table. Watched dodgeball after that. Not too bad, quite funny but I didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed Harold and Kumar. That show is hilarious man. A little disappointed. Maybe I expected too much. Haha.
Supper comprised of yummy silky daohweh. But not enough sugar syrup! *Pout* Had a good time catching up with Julz and Zack then. Went back to his place after that to pick up my sweater and watch. Need to eat more gingko nuts. Very forgetful!! Sent me home and konked out.
That was my weekend. Rough week ahead again. Sigh. Have a good week ahead!
Yesterday started off bad but ended off great. Night before I was having a runny nose and all and at night, I was all feverish and felt really crap. Didn't sleep the entire night. Alternating between nightmares, flash dreams, shivering, sweating and a 2-tonne head. Woke up at 7 to get ready for school. But felt way too crappy to attend class in that state. So made a call to him and made my way to his place instead. Didn't want to let my parents know I'm ill or it'll ruin my chances of seeing him during the weekend. A long journey. Surprised I made it all the way to his doorstep. Must be the crappiest feeling to be walking alone when you are ill. Wished he was there at the bus stop, there walking to be me, on his way, etc. But zilch. Must have felt a stab of pain then. But oh well, too bad for me, he fell asleep. Sad. Only woke up again when I was across the street. Oh well. Tough luck.
I felt so much better with him around, getting sayang, and all. And by the time it was 10, I was already feeling better. SOmehow, dunno why. Aunty Shirley then messaged me to join her for chinese church. Asked Andy and was asked to join his church instead. In the end, his parents sent us and his sister to church while they went to attend chinese church. Felt really bad for not joining though. First time I went to a service. Pretty interesting I must say. Was peaceful and nice.
After that, we headed back to his place for lunch. Was yummie. Ate a lot. Went back to his place after that. Cleaned up the cage while he watched some celebrity poker. Cleaned all the parts hoping to remove the scent of the babies. Sigh. Miss them.. If they didn't die, they should be covered in a little fur now.. running around squealing for Dilly's attention.. and Dilly would be busying bringing them back to the nest they strayed from.. Oh well. Guess it's not meant to be for now. They are probably somewhere else where they are growing up strong and healthy. Oh well. Andy did a very nice setup for their cage. The loop tube is now flat instead of standing up. Very interesting! Hehe. ANd nice. Think it's better also. Then can see them more clearly. Hehe.
Decided to cook dinner in the last minute since I bought an extra leg the other night. Andy loved the chicken chop I made and I was itching to try it again. Marinated the chicken chop with big onions, garlic, spring onions and mushrooms and plenty of other sauces and seasoning. Loved it. had it was the left over mashed potato. Yummie! I have to say my whipped potato tastes really good.. HAhahahahh~ Lotsa butter, garlic salt and a pinch of crushed black pepper.. Wicked! Toasted up the instant fried chicken and wedges we got from ntuc and tada~ we have a meal! Was good! We also had baby thai cucumbers with peanut butter-ketchup sauce. Sounds gross right, but it's actaully very very good! Hmm.. feeling like eating it again. Tastes like satay sauce except its not spicy. It's very nice and tangy. The meal was good. Ha.. I am itching to cook again! HAHAHAH. Weeheeeeeeeee!
Rushed to meet the rest after dinner. Had an awkward time sitting in the foodcourt coz there was so many of us sitting around a small table. Watched dodgeball after that. Not too bad, quite funny but I didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed Harold and Kumar. That show is hilarious man. A little disappointed. Maybe I expected too much. Haha.
Supper comprised of yummy silky daohweh. But not enough sugar syrup! *Pout* Had a good time catching up with Julz and Zack then. Went back to his place after that to pick up my sweater and watch. Need to eat more gingko nuts. Very forgetful!! Sent me home and konked out.
That was my weekend. Rough week ahead again. Sigh. Have a good week ahead!
Our dinner! Chicken Chop with mash potato. Cucumber to be dipped in this delicious peanut butter - ketchup sauce Andy made
Read something that amused me today. Andy and I have always argued this topic of discussion. He takes the stand of 'there's nothing wrong in doing that as long as you hold my hand so people know that it’s for a reason' whilst I took the stand of 'it's wimpy and embarrassing for you'.
::Extracted from CLEO's October issue::
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It ain't heavy.. it's my girlfriend's handbag by Chad Lim
I can't understand why some men carry their women's bags for them. Call it chauvinistic, call it primitive, but a guy walking around with a pretty girl on his arm and her handbag over his shoulder just doesn't look right. Even if he is wearing matching heels…
So why do these guys do it? Why do they willingly swing their girlfriends' handbags over their shoulders as if it's the most natural thing in the world, and should they be doing it?
I believe it all started with the hatching term SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guy). The SNAG is the guy who takes the time to discuss the secret ingredient to the upside down pineapple cake with your mother. He asks for directions when lost on the road while the rest of us non- SNAGs pretend everything’s under control.
Today there's a lot of talk about guys being "metrosexual". These are the guys who have an immaculate understanding of women and who take very good care of themselves. The do not use ordinary soap and water – they have fancy products for specific parts of their bodies. They're not gay yet seem to understand women the way gay men do. They shotgun their beer while sharing their views on the difference between A-line and pencil skirts. This new breed may appear unmanly to some, but the truth is, a man to display his feminine side so necessarily be secure about his masculinity to begin with. To sure a self-assured guy, what's a bit of handbag carrying?
Have guys been genetically altered somewhere down the line then? It bodes ill for the rest of us who are still of the Captain caveman strain. Are women still looking for the knight in shining armour? Nah, I think they’d prefer a guy who'd bother to climb those stairs to their tower and help them finish the embroidery instead. Let's be honest, if women really choose men based on what they’re looking for, then every nice, average guy out there would be besieged with females trying to date them. But average guys generally stay home on the weekend with a date from the local video store or with their keyboard and mouse. Despite what women say and how often they bring up the Women's Charter, they want a man who acts like a man. Scratch the surface and you'll find that deep down they don’t really want a man to act like a woman any more than a guy wants a woman to be mannish. Perhaps what women love about modern men is their ability to be tough on the outside but soft on the inside. Maybe the key is to never listen to what a woman says, but pay attention to what she needs.
My knowledge of what women want can be summed up on the back of a beer coaster, but I guess that's where guys like me should take the initiative. We need to find that balance. We need to start asking for directions when lost. We should be supporting her choice of hobby and yes, we should be ready to hold her handbag if the need arises. Hell, if Brad Pitt can wear a skirt, we men can certainly hold a handbag occasionally. Besides, it's not that heavy.
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Haha. Andy's a SNAG! But still, I'm not going to allow him to carry my bag unless it's heavy. I guess I've to learn to love the fact that not every guy offers to.
Ps: Didi, I thought of you big time when I read this article.. Moon.. Hello Kitty.. Pink furry bag.. You.. Hiding.. HAHAHHA :P Sayang!
::Extracted from CLEO's October issue::
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It ain't heavy.. it's my girlfriend's handbag by Chad Lim
I can't understand why some men carry their women's bags for them. Call it chauvinistic, call it primitive, but a guy walking around with a pretty girl on his arm and her handbag over his shoulder just doesn't look right. Even if he is wearing matching heels…
So why do these guys do it? Why do they willingly swing their girlfriends' handbags over their shoulders as if it's the most natural thing in the world, and should they be doing it?
I believe it all started with the hatching term SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guy). The SNAG is the guy who takes the time to discuss the secret ingredient to the upside down pineapple cake with your mother. He asks for directions when lost on the road while the rest of us non- SNAGs pretend everything’s under control.
Today there's a lot of talk about guys being "metrosexual". These are the guys who have an immaculate understanding of women and who take very good care of themselves. The do not use ordinary soap and water – they have fancy products for specific parts of their bodies. They're not gay yet seem to understand women the way gay men do. They shotgun their beer while sharing their views on the difference between A-line and pencil skirts. This new breed may appear unmanly to some, but the truth is, a man to display his feminine side so necessarily be secure about his masculinity to begin with. To sure a self-assured guy, what's a bit of handbag carrying?
Have guys been genetically altered somewhere down the line then? It bodes ill for the rest of us who are still of the Captain caveman strain. Are women still looking for the knight in shining armour? Nah, I think they’d prefer a guy who'd bother to climb those stairs to their tower and help them finish the embroidery instead. Let's be honest, if women really choose men based on what they’re looking for, then every nice, average guy out there would be besieged with females trying to date them. But average guys generally stay home on the weekend with a date from the local video store or with their keyboard and mouse. Despite what women say and how often they bring up the Women's Charter, they want a man who acts like a man. Scratch the surface and you'll find that deep down they don’t really want a man to act like a woman any more than a guy wants a woman to be mannish. Perhaps what women love about modern men is their ability to be tough on the outside but soft on the inside. Maybe the key is to never listen to what a woman says, but pay attention to what she needs.
My knowledge of what women want can be summed up on the back of a beer coaster, but I guess that's where guys like me should take the initiative. We need to find that balance. We need to start asking for directions when lost. We should be supporting her choice of hobby and yes, we should be ready to hold her handbag if the need arises. Hell, if Brad Pitt can wear a skirt, we men can certainly hold a handbag occasionally. Besides, it's not that heavy.
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Haha. Andy's a SNAG! But still, I'm not going to allow him to carry my bag unless it's heavy. I guess I've to learn to love the fact that not every guy offers to.
Ps: Didi, I thought of you big time when I read this article.. Moon.. Hello Kitty.. Pink furry bag.. You.. Hiding.. HAHAHHA :P Sayang!
Thursday, September 16, 2004
All my babies died. ALL. Don't ask me how. Only found 1 body. The rest were gone. They left as suddenly as they came. Think they died on Tues. They lived for 3 days. And I've only seen them alive once, on Sunday when they were borned. Now, they are gone. I didn't even watch them grow. My babies are gone. Sigh. Wish I didn't check to see if they are alright. Perhaps, if I didn't, I wouldn't have acknowledged that fact and who knows, they will be scampering around the cage in a week's time. Now, it's just Dilly and Silly left. Back to square one. Andy put Silly back into the cage. I think they are sad. They lost 8 babies.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
11.30 pm. Bedtime soon. Yawn. A little sleepy. Just finished binding my MM notes. Not bad. Neat and tidy now. I love it when things are in perfect order. Haha. I am a freak.
MM today was boring. The lecturer's a scottish and his accent muffled his entire lecture. Him being that softspoken didn't help either. Cindy concluded that he's a bad lecturer. Haha. MM is A-level's maths all over again. Nightmare for the both of us.
Sometimes I wonder if it is too late to know the meaning of 'regret'. I wonder if there's any use of me regretted not trying harder during my JC days and subsequent years. If I have fallen into the comfort zone where nothing will take me down. In my brother's words, mediocrity. Everything I have done in the past few years in terms of school have been mediocre as a result of a lack of hardwork and effort. It was so apparent. I cannot believe my ears when my brother told me that. Not that it wasn't true. Just that it really hit me hard this time around. Not that I am still 'mourning' over the loss of my marks. Just that I hope that whatever salvaging I can do to control the damage inflicted on my future would prove to be fruitful.
I realise that I do not wish to be just that average person, doing that average job. I dont want to work and kill my brain cells due to the lack of usage. I want to be useful, to be successful and strong. I want to strive, and to be outstanding. I want to be proud of myself.
I am excited by the prospect of working hard. Frankly speaking, I have never worked hard in my entire life. Somehow, I was always lucky. Covering the bare minimum for syllabuses, sometimes not even completing it, and yet, manage to pass my subjects with decent enough grades to make people think I studied rather hard for it. I'm ashamed to admit this but each time they say that, I feel guilty, because I know I didn't try as hard as I should have. And this time, I realise it's time to put and end to all these and change my lifestyle. I want to be officially known as a nerd. Haha.
WIll be having esap tomorrow. Applied psychology. Looking forward to it, besides the waking up early part that is. Okies, bedtime before I rattle on too much and act cranky tomorrow cause I was too busy blogging to sleep. Good night everyone! Hugs. Muacks dearie!
MM today was boring. The lecturer's a scottish and his accent muffled his entire lecture. Him being that softspoken didn't help either. Cindy concluded that he's a bad lecturer. Haha. MM is A-level's maths all over again. Nightmare for the both of us.
Sometimes I wonder if it is too late to know the meaning of 'regret'. I wonder if there's any use of me regretted not trying harder during my JC days and subsequent years. If I have fallen into the comfort zone where nothing will take me down. In my brother's words, mediocrity. Everything I have done in the past few years in terms of school have been mediocre as a result of a lack of hardwork and effort. It was so apparent. I cannot believe my ears when my brother told me that. Not that it wasn't true. Just that it really hit me hard this time around. Not that I am still 'mourning' over the loss of my marks. Just that I hope that whatever salvaging I can do to control the damage inflicted on my future would prove to be fruitful.
I realise that I do not wish to be just that average person, doing that average job. I dont want to work and kill my brain cells due to the lack of usage. I want to be useful, to be successful and strong. I want to strive, and to be outstanding. I want to be proud of myself.
I am excited by the prospect of working hard. Frankly speaking, I have never worked hard in my entire life. Somehow, I was always lucky. Covering the bare minimum for syllabuses, sometimes not even completing it, and yet, manage to pass my subjects with decent enough grades to make people think I studied rather hard for it. I'm ashamed to admit this but each time they say that, I feel guilty, because I know I didn't try as hard as I should have. And this time, I realise it's time to put and end to all these and change my lifestyle. I want to be officially known as a nerd. Haha.
WIll be having esap tomorrow. Applied psychology. Looking forward to it, besides the waking up early part that is. Okies, bedtime before I rattle on too much and act cranky tomorrow cause I was too busy blogging to sleep. Good night everyone! Hugs. Muacks dearie!
Almost 11.30. So very lazy. Got lecture at 1.00pm. Bleah. Sleepy.
Yesterday's tuition was all right. Everything went as per normal. Qiuyan was back to her sane self, which I am immensely glad for. Had class before that in the morning. Was a torture waking up at 7 am. Been a LONG while since I saw that time of the day. Made my way to school successfully. Met Andy for lunch over at his workplace after class. Qiuyan called to push back tuition and ended up walking around in china sq central for an hr! Spent most of my time in cold storage.. so no lifer. Was trying to keep myself busy going through every single aisles and familiaring myself with canned food. So doh. CSC is boring!!
Met Andy again later that evening. Went to his workplace after tuition. Poor boy had to finish up a rush job and I ended up sitting in the studio he was working in, reading magazines. Hehe, so cool to watch him hard at work! ;) Too bad I didn't bring my cam. Glad to know he's working in a comfortable place.
Went to orchard and treated him to Sakae. Walked around while waiting for Garfield to start. Garfield was boring.. The only funny part was the dancing bits. The rest was predictable.. And it's only slightly past an hour!!!
Okie. Time to figure out how to get to Jac's place later. Got tuition after my lecture. Yawn. Won't get to see Andy till Sat? AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Have a good day ahead y'all! Poof.
Yesterday's tuition was all right. Everything went as per normal. Qiuyan was back to her sane self, which I am immensely glad for. Had class before that in the morning. Was a torture waking up at 7 am. Been a LONG while since I saw that time of the day. Made my way to school successfully. Met Andy for lunch over at his workplace after class. Qiuyan called to push back tuition and ended up walking around in china sq central for an hr! Spent most of my time in cold storage.. so no lifer. Was trying to keep myself busy going through every single aisles and familiaring myself with canned food. So doh. CSC is boring!!
Met Andy again later that evening. Went to his workplace after tuition. Poor boy had to finish up a rush job and I ended up sitting in the studio he was working in, reading magazines. Hehe, so cool to watch him hard at work! ;) Too bad I didn't bring my cam. Glad to know he's working in a comfortable place.
Went to orchard and treated him to Sakae. Walked around while waiting for Garfield to start. Garfield was boring.. The only funny part was the dancing bits. The rest was predictable.. And it's only slightly past an hour!!!
Okie. Time to figure out how to get to Jac's place later. Got tuition after my lecture. Yawn. Won't get to see Andy till Sat? AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Have a good day ahead y'all! Poof.
Monday, September 13, 2004
2 pm. Feeling crappy. Gotta teach those two monsters today. Don't think I mentioned what happened on Friday. Basically those two rascals made me wait for 50 mins at Liying's house before calling me to 'decide they want to have tuition together' at Qiuyan's house. Supposely, 'Qiuyan's mother wants it that way, it isn't their faults' and 'they couldn't find 10cents, Liying's phone went flat and Qiuyan didn't want to use her hp to call em cause using the hicard costs too much. All of those happened at 1+ pm and they waited till 3.50 before they called me. I was at liying's house since 3pm. What nonsense is that? Was so mad at them and gave them a lecture. Instead of keeping quiet, Qiuyan kept talking back and giving excuses. Liying sat there keeping quiet most of the time. Things turned nasty when I got very mad when Qiuyan carried on making fun of the whole situation without showing remorse or whatsoever. Yelled at her. She cried. Think she's going to give me a very hard time today. I so NOT look forward to seeing her. She's really getting on my nerves and I'm going to snap soon. Argh.
Gotta go eat now and prepare for battle. Hope today will go fine.. *sigh* I miss my boy! School starts tomorrow. Gah.
Gotta go eat now and prepare for battle. Hope today will go fine.. *sigh* I miss my boy! School starts tomorrow. Gah.
I am so sleepy. I can't think anymore. Been feeling like this since 10+. And it's already 1 +. I need sleep. Badly!
Yawn.... I am so tired. One more question to solve for my kid before I can finally sleep. I am glad I am born 10 years before her. I pity those kids. Yawn..
I want sleep. I miss my pig. Hope Dilly's doing great. News flash: She moved those stray babies elsewhere, hopefully near her, already. Yay. Dilly's a girl. I am still in shock.
Yawn.... I am so tired. One more question to solve for my kid before I can finally sleep. I am glad I am born 10 years before her. I pity those kids. Yawn..
I want sleep. I miss my pig. Hope Dilly's doing great. News flash: She moved those stray babies elsewhere, hopefully near her, already. Yay. Dilly's a girl. I am still in shock.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Some may wonder why not Eeyore but piglet. The piglet one's not as cute and there's glue stuck to piglet's nose. I like Eeyore most after piglet plus he likes Eeyore, that explains my choice. Isn't Eeyore sweet?! =D
